It All Depends Upon What You're Into

These are honest musings, the sort that gets you into trouble, makes enemies, doesn't foster friendships, in general, drives people away. But I don't care. Anyway, I have something wrong with me. The angry gene, the depressed and discontent no matter what gene. The latter has been expressing itself since birth, the other has come and gone from time to time. Mostly stimulated by frustration and the inability to accomplish what I want. Although I wanted children, having children has made me even more frustrated than I've ever been. I feel like a perfectly able race horse, forced to stand and rot, nursing an over grown foal in the paddocks. Maybe this is extreme, but at times it's really how I feel. As age takes over and the arthritis spreads, I just become older and more uninteresting. Looking back and longing more than looking ahead or enjoying the now. I pine for the ability to just go back and work, forever, the age of 24 at Badger Federal, the job I cursed well into the late hours for keeping me out so long. Now it seems like pie, so easy, just drive, take a break if you want, when you want, just get from point A to B in a reasonable time, and be willing to do some creative logging for the owner and you'll never get fired. Unless you do something really bad. Like a DUI or cussing him out in front of his staff. That's a no, no. Summer you see Wisconsin in it's full glory, it's a short season, but it lives out to the fullest, as if it knows that time is short. Fall blows in by October and the nip in the air and the wind that makes your eyes water tells you that winter is not too far away. By November you're bringing out the heavy clothes and bundling. It's dreary, but the first snow usually comes in November and for me it's all worth the misery and rainy drudge of autumn. The Holiday season is ushered in with the promise of bright lights and specialty foods, and my favorite, Christmas music. I amassed a collection from the bin at our Goodwill in Oshkosh, $1-2 a pop and it remains the best music I've ever collected. Mostly instrumental. This whole time in my life stands out as the pinnacle and I didn't know it was at the time. If I did, I would have milked it, like the neighbor's Holsteins. I would have told my ex husband thanks but no thanks on our second date when he revealed he was "agnostic" and I would have married myself to Badger. For better or worse, it was the best job for me.

Healthcare.gov

This is a transcript from a live chat I just had with an Obamacare agent. Notice how she never answered my questions, intact she didn't respond until I asked if she was even there. Then she just passed me off to the 800#. 

[12:36:03 am]: Thanks for contacting Health Insurance Marketplace Live Chat. Please wait while we connect you to someone who can help.

[12:36:06 am]:  Please be patient while we're helping other people.

[12:36:19 am]: Welcome! You're now connected to Health Insurance Marketplace Live Chat. Thanks for contacting us. My name is Avionce. To protect your privacy, please don't provide any personal information, like Social Security Number, or any other sensitive medical or personal information.

[12:36:57 am]: Suzy

Hi

[12:39:05 am]: Suzy

I just completed my application with out income and social security numbers and house size, but I still don't see that we are elidgible for an subsidies

[12:39:08 am]: Avionce

Hi

[12:39:41 am]: Suzy

I was only able to say that we are claiming one dependent but really my husband claims 3 himself, me, and our daughter

[12:43:08 am]: Suzy

are you still there?

[12:44:09 am]: Avionce

Yes

[12:46:51 am]: Avionce

Complete the applications fully wiyh income social security ,and house size

[12:47:27 am]: Avionce

You may also call the Marketplace at 1-800-318-2596 for help with completing an application

[12:47:32 am]: Suzy

I did, we're unemployed and make a monthly income from a stock of $1285

[12:48:32 am]: Suzy

It said we didn't qualify for medicaid but could still submit if we wanted. I chose not to because I know we will be denied. Do we need to submit to qualify for subsidies?

[12:49:30 am]: Avionce

Call the Marketplace at 1-800-318-2596 for help with completing an application

[12:50:19 am]: Avionce

Do you have any other questions that I can help you with?

[12:52:32 am]: Avionce

Hello

[12:52:55 am]: Suzy

I'll just call, thanks

[12:53:09 am]: Avionce

Thank you for contacting Health Insurance Marketplace Live Chat. We are here to help you 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.

[12:53:21 am]: Your chat session is over. Thanks for contacting us, and we hope we've answered your questions. Have a great day.

[12:53:21 am]: 12/20/2013

My Little Monsters

At first I thought I was buying a home with a large section of old crab apple trees from a now defunct nursery program. Well, maybe I'm close. The neighbor's, who own a large section of land in the area, produced a small leaf magnolia variety, and has large stands of cedars, and magnolias. So maybe this was some of their stuff too? I don't know. All I know is the Callery pear and the migrant robins produce a lethal combination resulting in copious amounts of bird guano on visiting cars and this afternoon, me.
Check out this tie bit from the NPS Weed of The Week page about Callery pear trees: 
30-50 ft. tall, 20-30 ft. wide; young trees may be thorny.
That last part is no joke, I tried to cut some fall branches for decoration, but the thorns are so large and sharp that it wasn't worth it. 
The tree are also spread by birds that eat the fruit and proceed to have raging diarrhea all over the place.
I guess my winter activities will include pulling up small saplings, and sawing down older trees and treating the stumps. A pain in the ass, like many other things that have made themselves know with this property. When I first thought they where crab apple trees, I thought maybe I could sell them. Know I realize I'm stuck with worthless weeds that need to be destroyed before they take over like the kudzu, and the fire ants. 
If I was going to have an orchard, I'd rather it be pecans or apple trees. Not this poop projectile making ornamental nuisance.
Sad really.

Doing Battle with Invasive Species.

I got a little crazy after taking this picture. There's an overgrowth of some sort of vine in the side garden and it started getting into the A/C unit. That whole plot was looking unkempt and rough so I decided to address it. To be thorough I started digging up as many roots as I could. Lots of big roots down there from old bushes or something. I kept bringing up prices of some old terra cotta pipe so I decided to stop. I could see a tunnel headed under the driveway, but have no idea what I was digging up. Hope it's not a functioning drainage system I just ruined. The house is from 1943, so what could it be?

It's Raining Sunshine

Today was the first day in a while that was sunny and not dreary and rainy. When it rains and we can't frolic outside, I start to wonder what the hell are we doing here? Is this home a small money pit? Then there's a sunny day and we can walk the land with out getting caked in red clay and everything seems to make sense for a while. I finished hanging the icicle lights, which was a pain. I realized near the end that I had forgotten to test them before going through the effort to hang them. When I turned them on, a few strands didn't light, plus I found them unimpressive. The icicles are all scrunched up from being packaged and I don't know if they'll ever straighten out. But I think I'd rather run color lights along the house and fences anyway. They're cheaper too. I always wanted icicle lights, but now I think I'd rather do something different.

Propane and Propane Accessories

Well nothing has exactly "fallen" into place for us here. First off, the washer waste water pipe backed up into the house because it was broken and clogged with roots. When I asked the previous owner about it, he said that he had no idea and that he had been doing his laundry in town because his washer wasn't filling with. Probably because water was backing into it and the auto shut off kicked in. Anyway, a few trips to lows, digging, and hog sweat on a couple of 78 degree december December days in Middle Georgia, and we fixed the damn thing ourselves. Now for climate control. The previous owner left us with an almost empty propane tank that once the cold weather came around. My husband went by Amerigas Monday with our tank at about 5 gallons. They said they'd work us into the route this week. When he called again Wednesday they said they'd be out Friday or Saturday, but never did come or enter us into the system. So I couldn't get an emergency fill up. It wasn't so dire, but I was able to get in touch with a local operation in Eatonton and they came first thing Monday. They also need part time drivers, so there's hope for me yet. Propane is not cheap. My fill was $1.99 per gallon. We have a 500 gallon tank and they filled it to 85% which came out to an $800 something bill. Our house is small, so maybe that will take us a while to use. Other items on our list that need attention are the leaking toilet bottom, and putting a slab and cover on the well. The previous owner either didn't know his washer pipe was clogged and his toilet was leaking. Or he wasn't living here and using things so he could see the place with these items hidden. Since wet spots dry, and you can't test a "broken" washer. Who knows.

Start Up Costs

I knew I would regret not being able to hold onto my dad's tools, and that day is today. My dad had an asortment of every tool known to man. Table saw, jeweler's saws, vintage tools, and new tools. Then there was the plethora of garden tools. None of which where kept when my mom sold our house to downsize to yard free living. It just wasn't feasible to bring all that stuff with. I think most of it was given to friends, so atleast they live on. But man does it suck to have to buy all new stuff.. Especially in this economy when stuff is being made even cheaper.